Table 4 One

Unwinding after work on my couch is one of my favorite times. It’s not very often that I get to just sit still. So when I can, it’s me, the couch, and the television. The other day, I was watching one of my favorite shows, “So You Think You Can Dance”, a show that allows the top dancers in the country to compete for a title. What I love about the show is that it allows viewers to see dancers and choreographers in rehearsal and learn the concepts behind the routines. As I watched, the choreographer explained that the routine was about a couple who was so in love that it took their breath away. What?!? Now, that’s LOVE! I want some of that… That stuff that gives you butterflies… I think I’ve been there before, once before, but now I’m ready for it for real and I want it to last. Dating is fun, not having time to get too serious with anyone because everything is all in fun. And yes, don’t get me wrong, I am having fun but… I want some of that… Some of my friends and ...

I have fun! I mean, I really have a lot of fun! I’ve actually made the choice to enjoy my life! I am currently not satisfied with certain parts of my life… things that I just have to deal with at this time.   However, the parts of my life that I can control, I try to live them as carefree as possible! I have enough to worry about, so when it’s time to have fun, I do just that! Yes, I drink, I dabble in smoking hookah…I love to dance, spending time with friends and family, singing songs out of key, and so much more. And when I get these opportunities… I LIVE IT UP! However, sometimes in the midst of having all of this fun, I can make some crazy decisions! Regret. A good friend of mine once told me to ALWAYS listen to my instincts because they will never lead me wrong. I laughed at her, even though she was extremely serious during this conversation that I ruined by being silly, she was serious! She explained that my intuition will always be spot on and that I sho...

As I sit at the bar, sipping my Lemon Drop martini, I am thinking about why my life has turned out the way it has... (Don’t worry, this isn’t a “woe is me” post, I promise). I believe people are given certain things in life, in God’s time, not theirs, and that’s what’s happening to me.   Are you a person who cares what others think of you? I used to be that way… I used to care what people thought about what I wore, the things I said, who I hung out with and superficial stuff like that. And as I look back, I blame my father who every morning when I was a child, woke me up by singing, “You Are So Beautiful to Me”! What else is a girl supposed to think when she’s being serenaded this “self-esteem boosting” song! My father made me feel like I was the ONLY girl in the world, and as far as I knew, every man was going to treat me just like my daddy .     This treatment always had my self-esteem through the roof, between my father’s serenades and my mother complimenting ...

The other day, I saw a posting on Facebook that made me chuckle; it was witty, yet true, and touched on a subject that I often think about. The status read: “If you only pray when you’re in trouble, then you’re in trouble…” I wanted to give this person a high-five for posting this because as my prayer life has become more active, I’ve made it a point to think about my prayers. Although church/religion has always been a part of my life, I wouldn’t consider myself to be super religious. I go to church and I’m grateful for its role, but like everything else in my life, I could do better. I used to be afraid to pray because it felt so selfish, but that’s because when I prayed I was ALWAYS asking for something and it wasn’t until I got a better understanding of what prayer was that I made time for it.   Prayer: A spiritual communication with God or an object of worship, as in supplication, thanksgiving, adoration or confession. When I truly understood that I could ju...

I went to a wedding a few weeks ago… *le sigh* and it was beautiful!  Normally, I wouldn’t be too excited about going to a wedding, as a single woman (with no date).  But this one, in particular, was one I had been looking forward to attending for a while. As my ridiculously beautiful friend walked down a gorgeous staircase to take the hand of her soon-to-be husband, I was filled with joy and thoughts of well-wishes for the happy couple.  This was surprising to me, not because it was an unusual feeling to have, but because I had prepared myself for feelings of envy and sadness for myself and when that didn’t happen, it was a complicated feeling. It makes me feel horrible and selfish, inconsiderate and rude to know that I had actually prepared myself to feel this way! And on top of that, it didn’t even happen! I love this couple. They are my friends, so don’t get me wrong, the feelings I thought I would have were completely personal and had nothing to do with my being happ...

As a single woman, I for one, find so much comfort in confiding in and talking to my single friends.  Not all of my friends are single; some of them are married with children.  But, for the most part, the women I interact with on a daily basis are young, beautiful, successful and living happy lives… They also happen to be single. The more and more I think about it, I realize that we are more than likely in each other’s lives for a reason.  I don’t know about y’all, but at times (when I am feeling lonely or not having a good ”single girl” day) I look to my friends as an example that it’s not just me, that I am not alone, and I’m not “less than” just because I happen to be single. And as selfish, superficial or immature as it may seem, it’s a little comforting to know that I am not rowing this “single girl boat” alone.  We are each other’s example that we are “ok” and personally, sometimes I need a reminder.   Being a single woman, I have the luxury of going ou...

Pandora is a wonderful music app that I use on my phone every day.  It actually gets me through my day! And although I listen to a variety of stations, depending on my mood, the Tamia station is my absolute favorite and the one I listen to most.  Not too lovey dovey but its mellow enough to keep me jamming throughout the day! For the most part the rotation is not repetitive but these last few days “Almost” a song by Tamia plays at least twice and I’m not sure if I’m paying more attention to the lyrics because it’s very relevant to a recent situation… but the words really have me thinking about a certain someone. Here’s the chorus: I missed the times that we almost shared I miss the love that was almost there I miss the times that we use to kiss At least in my dreams Just let me take my time and reminisce I miss the times that we never had What happened to us we were almost there Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had Never almost had you   ...