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Time is known to heal all wounds and when my best friend in the whole wide world and my big sister were telling me this on a 3-way conversation we had when I first became single, I just couldn’t see it.   In fact, I was actually pissed with them for telling me that life would go on and that I’d be ok… That my relationship or the person I was with didn’t make me who I was.   And, of course, I now realize that they were right! Once I finally got over the rejection, I was fine!   Better than fine; actually, I was different, I had made progress.   And more recently I have seen an enormous amount of personal progress in my life.   I’ve made the decision to focus on me.   To actually be selfish!   I have always been very giving and caring to my friends and loved ones… so much that I’ve sacrificed my own happiness in certain situations.   But, the new 2012 Courtney has decided that this part of me is over!   I am single for a reason and I choos...

Let me first start by saying that I absolutely LOVE Jill Scott’s new CD, “In the Light of the Sun”.  It’s been in the CD player in my car, since last summer and I can’t take it out.  I’m enjoying the music so much and able to relate to a lot of the subjects she’s speaks about.  The songs about relationships and dating are the ones that touch me the most, because it is my current reality. One particular song I kept going back to is called “Making You Wait”; it talks about taking a new relationship to the next level.  When is it too soon?  And ladies, when we wait, are we waiting because we feel we have to, so we aren’t viewed in a certain light?  Or are we waiting because we think we have to, in order to have a real chance at building a real relationship with the person we are dating? Steve Harvey says, we should wait 90 days… “In 90 days, they have checked you out. They determined if you were easy to work with, if you got along well with othe...

Lost: Unable to find one's way; not knowing one's whereabouts: "they got lost in the fog". I had a dream last night that has me kind of uneasy this morning.  I was in a hotel, about to leave for a cruise and when I boarded the ship, I realized I had left something important behind in my room.  So, I ran back into the hotel and my room was nowhere to be found.  I ran through the hallways, being sure to look at the numbers on the doors, but my room number had disappeared!  I panicked… I really needed to get away, to take a deep breath and concentrate on myself!  But, this careless mistake had me lost and looking for something that never seemed to be there in the first place!  Just as it looked like I had found what I was looking for (my room)… My alarm clock went off and I had to wake up and start my day.  Dreams are something I often struggle with; I don’t know what they mean… They never come straight out and say “GO THIS WAY or DON’T GIVE UP, LET IT G...