Lost: Unable to find one's way; not knowing one's whereabouts: "they got lost in the fog".
I had a dream last night that has me kind of uneasy this morning. I was in a hotel, about to leave for a cruise and when I boarded the ship, I realized I had left something important behind in my room. So, I ran back into the hotel and my room was nowhere to be found. I ran through the hallways, being sure to look at the numbers on the doors, but my room number had disappeared! I panicked… I really needed to get away, to take a deep breath and concentrate on myself! But, this careless mistake had me lost and looking for something that never seemed to be there in the first place! Just as it looked like I had found what I was looking for (my room)… My alarm clock went off and I had to wake up and start my day.
Dreams are something I often struggle with; I don’t know what they mean… They never come straight out and say “GO THIS WAY or DON’T GIVE UP, LET IT GO or YOU’LL BE OKAY”! They always leave me with some weird situation to pick apart and relate to what I am going through at that time in my life.
Lately, I’ve been trying to find my place in life, my purpose…
Why am I here!?!
I have found myself wanting to know my purpose in life. In almost every aspect of my life, I am in limbo. My career, my home life, my love life, and my health… I am in no way, shape or form saying that I am ungrateful for where I am, but I’m definitely not satisfied. I need to find out what I need to do, in order to be where I want to be! I want to be happy! And in order to be happy, I feel like I need to find a place of satisfaction in these areas of my life. But how?
I’ve decided to take a step back, write a plan, and attempt to accomplish some goals. I don’t feel the need to broadcast what these goals are, because this is a personal battle. Have you ever had to challenge yourself? Not in an“I’m gonna lose five pounds, so I can get in this year's NYE dress” type of way… But in a real, challenging, life changing type of way..,. Well, I think that is where I am… I need to ask myself some serious questions and find the answers, so I can live my best life!
I am not sad, I am grateful that I am able to see that where I am in life is not where I want to be! I have some real self-examining to do and I’m excited to see what I find. How can I want a relationship with a person that has great attributes and has established a great place in their life and I can’t bring the same back to them!?! Well, I’m up for the challenge and preparing myself for greatness!
"I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time…Know there was something that, something that I left behind…When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets…Leave something to remember, so they won't forget… I was here...” –Beyonce’
Table for One please… Realizing my potential… Love me or leave me alone!
BACK TO HAPPY TIP: Take a long, hard look at yourself and figure out if you are really happy. If you aren’t, then make the necessary plans to get there! If I can do it…so can you!