Table 4 One

Unwinding after work on my couch is one of my favorite times. It’s not very often that I get to just sit still. So when I can, it’s me, the couch, and the television. The other day, I was watching one of my favorite shows, “So You Think You Can Dance”, a show that allows the top dancers in the country to compete for a title. What I love about the show is that it allows viewers to see dancers and choreographers in rehearsal and learn the concepts behind the routines. As I watched, the choreographer explained that the routine was about a couple who was so in love that it took their breath away. What?!? Now, that’s LOVE! I want some of that… That stuff that gives you butterflies… I think I’ve been there before, once before, but now I’m ready for it for real and I want it to last. Dating is fun, not having time to get too serious with anyone because everything is all in fun. And yes, don’t get me wrong, I am having fun but… I want some of that… Some of my friends and ...

I have fun! I mean, I really have a lot of fun! I’ve actually made the choice to enjoy my life! I am currently not satisfied with certain parts of my life… things that I just have to deal with at this time.   However, the parts of my life that I can control, I try to live them as carefree as possible! I have enough to worry about, so when it’s time to have fun, I do just that! Yes, I drink, I dabble in smoking hookah…I love to dance, spending time with friends and family, singing songs out of key, and so much more. And when I get these opportunities… I LIVE IT UP! However, sometimes in the midst of having all of this fun, I can make some crazy decisions! Regret. A good friend of mine once told me to ALWAYS listen to my instincts because they will never lead me wrong. I laughed at her, even though she was extremely serious during this conversation that I ruined by being silly, she was serious! She explained that my intuition will always be spot on and that I sho...

As I sit at the bar, sipping my Lemon Drop martini, I am thinking about why my life has turned out the way it has... (Don’t worry, this isn’t a “woe is me” post, I promise). I believe people are given certain things in life, in God’s time, not theirs, and that’s what’s happening to me.   Are you a person who cares what others think of you? I used to be that way… I used to care what people thought about what I wore, the things I said, who I hung out with and superficial stuff like that. And as I look back, I blame my father who every morning when I was a child, woke me up by singing, “You Are So Beautiful to Me”! What else is a girl supposed to think when she’s being serenaded this “self-esteem boosting” song! My father made me feel like I was the ONLY girl in the world, and as far as I knew, every man was going to treat me just like my daddy .     This treatment always had my self-esteem through the roof, between my father’s serenades and my mother complimenting ...

The other day, I saw a posting on Facebook that made me chuckle; it was witty, yet true, and touched on a subject that I often think about. The status read: “If you only pray when you’re in trouble, then you’re in trouble…” I wanted to give this person a high-five for posting this because as my prayer life has become more active, I’ve made it a point to think about my prayers. Although church/religion has always been a part of my life, I wouldn’t consider myself to be super religious. I go to church and I’m grateful for its role, but like everything else in my life, I could do better. I used to be afraid to pray because it felt so selfish, but that’s because when I prayed I was ALWAYS asking for something and it wasn’t until I got a better understanding of what prayer was that I made time for it.   Prayer: A spiritual communication with God or an object of worship, as in supplication, thanksgiving, adoration or confession. When I truly understood that I could ju...