Have you ever had one? I almost had one the other night. I ran across some old pictures and decided to look through them. I normally don’t do this because I know they will take me back to a time when I was Dangerously in Love and I just don’t need to go back there. But I looked anyway…
I ran across a beautiful picture of me and my ex, we looked so happy… we were at my cousin’s 30th birthday party dancing. I looked at the picture for a second (which was way too long in my opinion). It was a candid shot, so neither one of us was looking at the camera. The photo seemed to tell the whole story of what our relationship embodied. Joy, love, fun, passion, friendship, all of that and more… It kind of upset me to know that I felt all of this emotion from looking at this picture for literally one second. So after my glance I tossed in the trash because all that the picture represented is gone and will never be back.
I feel that the past is just that and should be left there. I guess I’m not strong enough to face it. Even though it was long ago I still can see the scars that the scabs left after they healed. You know what I mean? The pain I felt from my break up is no longer there, but I can still see the scars that were left behind and I DO NOT want to re-live that time… EVER with ANYONE! So, I just move forward and I never plan to look back.
“I like the dreams of the future better than the history of the past.” Thomas Jefferson
I am so hopeful for my future that I’ve made it a point to leave my past where it is. I have never been a “break up and get back together” kind of girl, when something in my life is over I never look back. I don’t know if this is a defense mechanism or great willpower. But I’ve been like this since I was a child…
If I asked my parents for something and they said no then that was the end of the conversation. I am not a beggar…I am not a risk taker…I am not a second try girl. I just feel that everything happens when it does and how it does for a purpose. If it was for me then I would have gotten it. So everything that’s in my past (if up to me) will remain there. I will not brush the dust off of anything in my past because I’m too eager for my future to look back!
Setbacks… We can either allow them to have power or toss them in the trash. I almost had one the other day and I’m grateful for my strength. When you have something to look forward to, old stuff has no validity and although I will never forget that time in my life it’s over! I am grateful for the good times… the bad times… the experience… but life goes on.
Table for One please… Looking forward NOT back… Love me or leave me alone!
BACK TO HAPPY TIP: Memories should always make you smile… If they don’t, leave them where they belong… THE PAST!