My Daily Struggle

I would not consider myself to be SUPER religious; however, I am a believer and I feel that attending church plays a big part in my sanity! I love my church… it’s a non-judgmental, comfortable environment where I feel I can be myself. And whether I need to cry (which is what usually happens), scream, shout, dance, or say absolutely nothing at all… its ok! And I absolutely love that! It fills me up, rejuvenates me, and prepares me for the challenges I will face in the future. 
I often say that I know what I am looking for in a relationship, when in actuality I shouldn’t be looking at all! I try my best not to, but the “Superwoman” in me can’t help but look for certain attributes when dating someone. I try to recognize what I’ve learned in church about relationships because I feel that a true, long-lasting, and successful relationship cannot survive without some type of religious involvement.  Like I said, I am not SUPER religious, but it does play a big role in my life!
I am not one of those single women who sit up and pray for God to send me a man! I just can’t bring myself to do it! I know that what God has for me is for me, so I don’t feel that these types of prayers are necessary. However, I do pray for patience and the willpower to not settle for anything that I am not completely satisfied with in my life. My prayer for patience has definitely been answered. I’ve noticed that although I am not completely where I want to be with my virtue of patience, I’ve come a LONG way. I have found that when I have been impatient, I usually receive instant gratification and then easily become bored or dissatisfied with what I have gotten myself into. So, I’ve learned to sit back and relax. And although this has been a struggle for me, I like where it’s brought me…
But as we all know, once one thing goes well, something else goes wrong and my current struggle is one that I am constantly working on. I love quotes and one I read the other day slapped me right in my face!
“The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one.”
The reason I was so affected by this quote is because I have been worried about several aspects of my life lately, even the small stuff! And as I vent to family and friends their nonchalant responses to my worries were almost insulting! I couldn’t understand why they weren’t as affected by any of the “problems” I faced! When I saw this quote I realized that the “problems” weren’t my issue, it was my fear of what “could” happen “if” something went wrong! Have you ever wanted something SO badly that you sabotaged it before it could even happen?!? Well, I think that’s what I was in the process of doing! I am not perfect and I do make mistakes and that’s my daily struggle, learning to recover from the mistakes I’ve made!
My current prayer is to not have a worrying spirit… what is meant to be will be and worrying will not stop the inevitable, so until then I plan to…
“Work like I don't need the money, love like my heart has never been broken, and dance like no one is watching.”

Wish me luck… My daily struggle…

Table for One please… lots of work to do… love me or leave me alone…

BACK TO HAPPY TIP: Leave your worries behind and LIVE YOUR LIFE!

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