I’ve been in quite the rut lately. I can’t even fake the funk; I’ve been looking at those around me and comparing their situations to my own. I’m looking at what they have personally, professionally, and financially and realizing that I am in a completely different place in all of those areas. That’s not the way to live this life! I mean if I walk around trying to see if I measure up to those around me, I will never be satisfied with where I am! I’ve got to snap out of this! I am, indeed, very blessed and this pity party that I‘m giving myself only has one guest and that’s me!
I’ve had some bad days over these last couple weeks, but I’ve had some great ones too! Why do we give the bad stuff in our lives so much more validity than the good stuff!?! So what, over the last few weeks I’ve had maybe 3 bad days, but the rest have been great! I had an amazing time at my birthday party…I hung out with family and friends, I danced, sang karaoke, and I even had a chance to do a little public speaking all in the last couple weeks, so what is there to be down about?!? I’m not quite sure, but for some reason when those bad days come around, I forget about all of the things I should be grateful for.
My mom introduced me to a song when I was younger that never really had much impact until I got older. The song says, “All of my good days, outweigh my bad days, so I won’t complain…”. This song speaks to me more today than it ever has, so much so that I find myself humming it often as I try to make it through these more and more prevalent bad days. But the crazy thing is that my bad days really aren’t so bad after all. I know my life isn’t perfect, but I’m not hungry, I have a job, I have a car, a loving family and fantastic friends… And I have the nerve to complain!
To be honest with you, I’m kind of frustrated with myself; I just get in these moods where I want more… Is that greedy? Is God keeping me where I am in life because I don’t seem to be grateful for what I do have? As I write this, I am starting to think that this may be the case. I have set goals and I am working toward accomplishing them…I have lost 21 pounds, I am making steps toward advancing in my career, I am actively saving for a home… I am taking huge steps toward becoming the person I want to be.
So right here, right now, I am going to make a conscious effort to be grateful. What God has for me IS FOR ME! I just have to learn to practice a little more patience, because who knows, this could all be a test! And I want to get an A!
Table for One please… preparing to pass the test… Love me or leave me alone…
BACK TO HAPPY TIP: Realize that this is your life to live and you should live it taking the good with the bad. And the good ALWAYS outweighs the bad.